i cant sleep.

its true. its almost 2 a.m. and i cannot fall asleep.
so i will do the lamest thing ever.
get out my macbookpro and get on blogspot and write about it.

one of my best friends, rachel cureton, is coming down for spring break.
im excited to see her... ive missed her. so that is nice to look forward to... its wierd not having a regular scheduled week. i dont know if i like it or not. i dont miss having school and all the activities that go along with it, but i do miss having things set out and scheduled for me... oh well. i guess i should enjoy being unemployed and not in school while i can. only a few more months of it. march...april..may...june..july...and then half of august. i have a feeling those months will go by faster than i expect.

im listening to the magic numbers right now "love me like you"... it makes me think of the time in belfast two years ago when dustin and i were in virgin records and we passed by them. they are kind of scary people. and they look very similar. all long brown hair and a bit overweight. i wonder if they are related? idk...

tomorrow i am having dinner with ashlin at la hacienda dos then grey's anatomy with her and some friends... should be fun.

today i brought jack in from the back yard because andrew had some guys over for the hot tub so i played with jack in the living room. i felt like a child. i had a bowl of grapes that i had for dinner and jack looked at me then his ears did that thing goldens do to make you give them whatever you have even if it is your last glass of water in the middle of the zahara or something. so i sat there trying to not fall to his glance. but then he did it. he did the head tilt. he read me like a book. that sly dog. so i tossed him a grape. and it took him a while to figure out that it was a small round thing but it wasnt small enough to swallow whole. so he spit it out a few times and pawed at it then ate it. a few grapes later i realized he wasnt going to let me have any, so i just tossed him two at once to make the game shorter. but. he decided that if he had two, he couldnt choose which one to eat first. so he just sat there. wagging his tail. waiting for me to throw him another... i tell you . he is sly. but not sly enough. so i got up and i made him eat them then i went out to the garage to see austin "woodworking".
i still do not get the art of woodworking. until then. i will keep throwing grapes to jack.

its now 2:07 a.m. and i am still wide eyed and awake. dangg..it...

anyways. i miss having pom in the house. i like pom. and its really good for you. they say it keeps cancer away.
sometimes i think people just obsess too much about stuff like that though. i mean. putting diet coke and a pack of cigarettes on the same level of "it will give you cancer!" isnt right. i mean srsly guys... what wont give you cancer these days. and if something helps keep it away its like a wonder drink/food. i mean, i love pom. but i buy it because i like how it tastes and the glass it comes in. not because im thinking that it will preserve my life. if i am going to die from cancer, i will die from cancer. but i will not be thinking in that hospital bed, man. i shouldnt have drank that last diet coke or smoked that last cigarette. i will be thinking. i hope heaven has an ipod for me with every single song ever created. well. all the good ones at least.

well. i am going to try to go to bed. it is really windy outside and i can hear it blowing up against the wall of our house. i love this house. it will be hard to leave it in august. ive been spoilt.

love,
heather

not for all the love in the world...

she didn't realize...



thats a lot of love...

love me like you

hello...

ive been listening to the killers a lot lately.. top songs are "read my mind" "bling" and "reasons unknown"... i like them... esp. when i am driving by myself. i can just enjoy them all to myself. haha. im selfish like that. but sometimes people talk during good songs and ruin them. its ok sometimes. but. sometimes its nice to just have yourself and your thoughts going along with music.

last night i stayed up really late and cleaned my whole room. its nice. but im tired... oh well. at least i got stuff done. then i went to bed. well. i tried. austin (benedict) came and got me up because there was a "giant sized possum" in my garage. so i got up and went out to idk even what and it wasnt even there. i partly think he was lying, but, idk if he is smart enough to do that... :) jk. jk. anyways, then i went to bed and woke up at like. 12! crazy. thats the latest ive slept since my parents got back. then i got ready and went up to jbu for a bit. didnt do much there... just drew a bit and then worked on some fundraising stuff...

im thinking of going with my bro to give plasma this week. since i dont have a job anymore. i could use 80 dollars a week... but its kind of a creepy job i think. haha. "so heather, what do you do?" "oh. i give plasma." grossssssss...oh well.

i cant wait until college. i chose my graduation present today. i <3 it. it will help with all of my school stuff. im double majoring in photography and graphic design. wooot.

anyways. im going to go hot tub with the rents. you know. paint our nails and talk about our feelings. then tomorrow night is greys with the girls! woo hoo.

love
heather

i can watch the sunset on my own. yes, i can be alone.

today i went and fed the ducks at the park with brad and josh.

it was a little fun. but very cold. we went to sonic right before and all got cold drinks then stood out on the ledge of the little river/big creek, and threw pieces of bread into the water. three ducks came and ate some, then left when the two ugly ducks came over for some. i felt bad for the ugly ducks. but hey. they are ducks. what can you do?

after that we went back to walker and hung out for a bit then brad left us for jason and quiznos. so then we sat there and argued for a bit and were insanely bored so we went to jills.

i love jill! i felt bad for her for having to study the whole time, but, shes really determined and disciplined and i think thats awesome! i wish i were more like that. i dont think i have ever truly studied for a test. like. my whole life. and i will probably have to in college. i usually just read over my notes once before the test and am fine. but. i doubt that will cut it at jbu...

anyways. i realized today how insane jbu is. i mean. srsly. a guy and a girl can hang out once, for even just like ten minutes. and they are a couple. ive been asked 3 times today by different people if im dating this guy, and srsly. im not dating anyone! just so everybody knows. i have guy friends, but no boyfriend. and i plan to keep it that way till i start jbu. prolly till im a sophomore. just because i want to have a bit of fun. g.

time for bed.

love
heather

Vision of Division

Well. Im back. Already. Its 2:38 a.m. & i cannot sleep.

i tried a new drink today. i give it a 8 out of 10.
Its a mix of strawberries, bananas, and oranges. and i liked it.

its amazing how many things i take for granted these days.
for example, i love my dog, jack. i really do. i take him on walks all the time and i just. i really love him. but there are times, when i just wish i had sammy back. sammy was our first golden retriever. she was perfect. not even kidding. absolute perfection in a dog. she learned how to do things quickly and she didnt forget them. she was the reddest of all of our dogs as well. and i loved it. sammy was also a very calm dog. she would play fetch and get excited when you pet her and all of that, but she would also calm down and not bark when you wanted her to. she wasnt allowed in very much because my parents didnt really want to clean up after her and i was too young to do it. but now, i wish that i would have been able to have her inside. i really like having jack inside when he is calm. which is very very rare. but it happens occasionally. he is a great dog, and i love him, but i really miss sammy as well. i hope she is doing ok wherever she is. (she was stolen about 4 years ago when we were in ireland.)

anyways. so from now on i am really going to try more to not take things for granted. because life can be so good and we wont realize it until something bad happens.

Im listening to the strokes right now. i love them. they make things good. razorblade just started and it reminds me of their concert. it was very good. i felt really alone that night though... but its ok.

tomorrow is sunday. and i dont think i will go to church. we are having lunch at market place with brocks parents then coming home and then i have a meeting up at jbu at seven... i used to love ireland meetings. but now they are just dull to me. everything has been said to me already about 9 times. people do the exact same things every single year. and i think this might be my last year to go for a while. idk. when i think about it idk how i wouldnt go next year, but, at the same time. i will be in college then, and i will probably want or have a job. i love ireland, i really do, but sometimes i feel like im o.d-ing on it and its just making me dislike it. isnt that odd? ireland is my second home, and i want to be there when i am here in america, but when im there, i just want to be here with all my friends. i kind of just want a summertime.
i want to be here for the fourth of july. i want to see firecrackers and fireworks. i want to do all that summer stuff. and i never really have. this is the first year i was at school on the last day, and that was because i graduated in december, and it didnt even really count. oh well. everybody has different things going on... mine are small compared to some others.
so i will stop complaining immediately.

this post is getting extremely long. and its 3 oclock in the morning. i suppose i should go to bed. although that will be hard since i was sick all day and slept till twelve, missed the rugby game, got up till 2 then slept till 6. dang... oh well. ill get better when i get back into a schedule with a job or something...

love
heather

dancing at discos, eating cheese on toast, thats how it used to be..

im sitting here next to one of my best friends, my mommy. i love her.... and then mollie and snorri are on the next couch and dad is in the big chair. i like this. im listening to kate nash's song, Merry Happy, and it is making me happy. its true! its 1:10 and my parents are still awake! thats craziness. : )
tonight was the talent show and jake funk got second then the girls who danced and did black light or something won first. so it was good. i enjoyed it thoroughly. anyways. im ready for college! im ready to get back into school. and im ready for something new as well. sometimes i feel like i shouldnt be up at jbu because i really dont have anything to do up there and i feel like im hovering or just hanging out all the time. but my whole family is up there, so its hard for me not to be. so it will be nice to actually belong there in august.
anyways. im tired of typing. so im going to stop.

love. heather.

driving.

well... just got back from a super long walk with my father and my dog, jack. it was fun. today was the first day i could wear a t-shirt and not be frozen by the time i get back to the house... i miss warm weather. i got in the hot tub yesterday after lunch and the sun was shining and i had my sunglasses on and it was nice. even though the temperature was about 30, it didnt feel like it. i also got a bit of a tan-line. that made me miss summer even more. being tan without being fake tan. i tan really easily, unlike andrew, who just burns a few times then gets a bit tanner. :) but he got the blue eyes. so it evens out... anyways, fake tans are kind of disgusting. i went tanning a lot last year before prom, i thought it was SO cool. get tan and feel all relaxed without even doing anything. now i realize how horrible it is for your skin without proper lotion and care. i dont think i will ever go to a tanning salon again. plus, it makes you smell like burned skin. and that is never attractive... haha. at least not to me.
last night i went with josh hixson to my brothers concert. except not. we never made it there! i looked up a map online to the place and josh printed it off. i totally thought it was the right place. but. by the time we got to dickson street, we knew we were far off (its in springdale). so we spent about an hour getting to fayetteville then turning around a few times then starting over then giving up. after going through many shady neighborhoods, we decided to give up. it was 8:30 when we decided to stop trying. we left siloam at 7:20... so... we came back to siloam and we drove around for a bit. desperately trying to find things to do. but nothing came up. eventually we just went to jills house and hung with them then i went home and they went to common grounds. it was a longggggg night. but soooooooooooo much fun.... :)
Anyways. tonight i have a ireland mission trip meeting that im kind of looking forward to and im kind of not. i dont really want to get dressed and showered, but i do want to see some dear friends. so i suppose i will go.

Soma

drew did a concert tonight... he did really well. im very proud of him.
emmm... josh hixson and i are fighting about foods and which are our favorites. which of course, mine is rice, but he thinks that it is his too. completely wrong. anyways, im wearing my cheerios shirt right now and it makes me happy.

Hot Apple Cider and Cold Snowy Roads

First Post.

Well. It's snowing outside and I'm sitting here drinking hot apple cider. Last night Andrew and I went to J-Alvin and watched Grant and Thomas on "The Dating Game"... They both were chosen. Anyways... No Mollie tonight. She left this morning and I already miss her! Although it IS nice to have my parents back.
My mom is the best. She brought me back some of my favorite British magazines and some really good strawberry candies that I love, also a painting on silk that she bought for £30.00.. She loves me! :) Anyways. My daddy is awesome too. He brought me back some Tony & Guy shampoo and stuff like that from Boots. I wish i could have gone. Oh well.
Anyways, I have to go pick someone up now...

love heather