Vision of Division

Well. Im back. Already. Its 2:38 a.m. & i cannot sleep.

i tried a new drink today. i give it a 8 out of 10.
Its a mix of strawberries, bananas, and oranges. and i liked it.

its amazing how many things i take for granted these days.
for example, i love my dog, jack. i really do. i take him on walks all the time and i just. i really love him. but there are times, when i just wish i had sammy back. sammy was our first golden retriever. she was perfect. not even kidding. absolute perfection in a dog. she learned how to do things quickly and she didnt forget them. she was the reddest of all of our dogs as well. and i loved it. sammy was also a very calm dog. she would play fetch and get excited when you pet her and all of that, but she would also calm down and not bark when you wanted her to. she wasnt allowed in very much because my parents didnt really want to clean up after her and i was too young to do it. but now, i wish that i would have been able to have her inside. i really like having jack inside when he is calm. which is very very rare. but it happens occasionally. he is a great dog, and i love him, but i really miss sammy as well. i hope she is doing ok wherever she is. (she was stolen about 4 years ago when we were in ireland.)

anyways. so from now on i am really going to try more to not take things for granted. because life can be so good and we wont realize it until something bad happens.

Im listening to the strokes right now. i love them. they make things good. razorblade just started and it reminds me of their concert. it was very good. i felt really alone that night though... but its ok.

tomorrow is sunday. and i dont think i will go to church. we are having lunch at market place with brocks parents then coming home and then i have a meeting up at jbu at seven... i used to love ireland meetings. but now they are just dull to me. everything has been said to me already about 9 times. people do the exact same things every single year. and i think this might be my last year to go for a while. idk. when i think about it idk how i wouldnt go next year, but, at the same time. i will be in college then, and i will probably want or have a job. i love ireland, i really do, but sometimes i feel like im o.d-ing on it and its just making me dislike it. isnt that odd? ireland is my second home, and i want to be there when i am here in america, but when im there, i just want to be here with all my friends. i kind of just want a summertime.
i want to be here for the fourth of july. i want to see firecrackers and fireworks. i want to do all that summer stuff. and i never really have. this is the first year i was at school on the last day, and that was because i graduated in december, and it didnt even really count. oh well. everybody has different things going on... mine are small compared to some others.
so i will stop complaining immediately.

this post is getting extremely long. and its 3 oclock in the morning. i suppose i should go to bed. although that will be hard since i was sick all day and slept till twelve, missed the rugby game, got up till 2 then slept till 6. dang... oh well. ill get better when i get back into a schedule with a job or something...

love
heather